bullfrogsrscary

moving...

Tue, 15 Jan 2008 16:46:51 GMT

sucks. i know you all know about this. still had to say it though. shit sucks.

stranger things have happened

Fri, 31 Aug 2007 05:34:33 GMT

i started at the melting pot tonight. shit was pretty alright. i wish some of my friends still worked there... although tim is pretty rad. i guess i am officially going to be saving to get out of this town for reals now.

crime and punishment

Wed, 08 Aug 2007 03:20:01 GMT

so... kyle's car got stolen from in front of my house. while under my supervision. the day after he left on his trip. kind of bummed. i feel so bad for him too. i know he needed that money for boston. i really feel extremely guilty right now. time for a bottle of wine.

the most vegan thing that has ever happened to me.

Sat, 04 Aug 2007 08:46:24 GMT

got fired from cattlemen's today.
9 years deep.
called in last friday at noon.
got my shift covered saturday.
my dad (who i get to see 2/3 times a year) was in town.
light-railed my ass all the way out there today to walk in the door to termination papers.
"refusal to work... sign here... sorry."

yeah. thanks. i could have handled this on my day off, but thanks.
fuck it, i was going to quit on the 15th anyway.

sons of cock.

solitude.

Wed, 01 Aug 2007 03:07:52 GMT

i may need to hit rock-bottom in order to feel something.

burp... getting drunk, cleaning my house.

Fri, 27 Jul 2007 04:11:30 GMT

plans.
stay in sacramento... bummer, kind of.

i am switching companies.

first legal pays waaay more.

this means i can not move anywhere in october. bummer, kind of.

i still, however, am taking a two week surf trip to baja with my dad in september...

as a result of this combination of events, los angeles or boston is out of the question for now.

i still plan teaching abroad... more like hella broads, hopefully.

word to the skull and bones krew.

i am going to get back to cleaning now.

Tue, 10 Jul 2007 06:10:38 GMT

things are in the works.

p.s. go see paris je t'aime.

i think...

Tue, 29 May 2007 00:37:48 GMT

it may be time for a lady friend... maybe i'm being sentimental this afternoon.

turning old.

Sun, 11 Mar 2007 19:52:32 GMT

is an odd thing.

i think...

Thu, 11 Jan 2007 06:31:25 GMT

...i like life.

the trees and quiet boulevards of sacramento do seem to lend themselves nicely to the late afternoon winter sun...

on my evening jog today, a precious little fluffy, gray house cat, complete with tinkling golden bell collar awakened me.

he seemed to fancy my shoelaces and the jangling pair of copied house keys tied to them. so much so, that he chased me for an entire block through midtown in the quiet dusk. he kept pace until the intersection where, losing interest, stopping to lick a paw, he plopped down in a rather carefree, graceful, feline manner onto a shaded section of some victorian's manicured lawn.

i couldn't help but to laugh uncontrollably. at the situation, at the fact that to a cat, i may have just been one passing adventure in a day full of many such adventures. yet this simple chance meeting changed, indeed, completely altered a week, month, years worth of frustrations, malice, disappointment. suddenly my shortness of breath, my burning muscles, screaming from years of disuse, the chill burning my hands, stinging my nose, all of that, all of it disappeared.

it was at this moment i glanced up through the now darkening gray silhouettes of tree limbs, through to the now purpling orange sky, past to the crows daily migration, and realized...

kiss me i'm italian...

Sun, 26 Nov 2006 04:20:32 GMT

my grandfather's wake and funeral were over these past two days...

it was amazing. the wake was classic italian catholic. with the whole flower arrangements and rosary... and the funeral mass was unbelievable.

there was a 21 gun salute at the gravesite.... there were a bunch of wwii veterans nearly in tears burying one of thier comerades...

rest your soul.
gaspare amedeo eduardo giullermo nisito.

(ave maria played as we brought my grandfathers casket down the hall of the church...)

the reception was at this classic italian restaurant. it was amazing. sinatra playing. dean martin. the godfather theme... classic.

see you all tomorrow.

rolling stones.

Thu, 23 Nov 2006 08:55:05 GMT

i just got home from seeing the rolling stones.
this is the first and probably the only time i will ever see them.

the show was amazing. it is entirely cliche to say that it is remarkable what they do at their age.... but it is remarkable what they do at any age. i can see why they continue to keep at what they do, and with touring... etc. but, you can see it in them. for every part of every song they play. they are on. they play with such feeling. it is unbelievable. they palyed for over 2 HOURS! i get tired playing a 30 minute set!

the entire show was great. and bonnie raitt opened for them. she was also amazing. such an amazing singer... her slide guitar playing was unbelievable.... i was sooo glad i got to see her as well.

i had a fantastic night. it was a nice break in the middle of all the dysfunctional family mess/ grieving process.

happy thanksgiving to all of you... spend it well with family or friends. don't eat any turkey... and at least acknowledge the genocide which we perpetrated aginst those whose land this was before us.

fuck the pilgrims. fuck the puritans.

p.s. we found a bunch of nazi shit my grandpa got during wwii.

vegetable delight

Wed, 22 Nov 2006 06:27:27 GMT

hecka good chinese food.

vegetable deight. mmm. mmm. mmm.

i made my aunt, my dad and my grandma eat it... they loved the vegan goodness.

R.I.P.

Tue, 21 Nov 2006 16:55:35 GMT

Gaspare Amadeo Eduardo Guillermo Nisito

March 10, 1922-November 19, 2006

i am going to miss you grandpa.

p.s. i will be out of town this week...
but i will be back for sunday!

p.p.s. i get to see the rolling stones on wednesday at dodger stadium! sick!

sketchy

Fri, 03 Nov 2006 20:04:32 GMT

sooo.

-i decided to go back to school. for a second b.a... before going for my teaching credential.
-i registered and began to attend, but was told i no longer qualified because it will be my second b.a.
-shitty. but they said i could appeal...
-so i continued going, hoping...
-after a couple weeks, i was rejected. however, they automatically put it to a second level, so there was still a chance...
-family emergency happened so i missed a week of school.
-i continued... i wasn't hearing anything from the school about the appeal and i hadn't paid tuition yet.
- i began receiving rather threatening letters explaining how they were going to kick me out if i didn't pay sooo...
-being broke, i decided to stop attending classes and use my energy to pick up more days at work and look for some sort of legitimate employment with the state... (bleh... but benefits! and like 3 grand a month. wooo!)(did i mention i am broke? i am on food stamps these days. yay for the liberals!)
-anyway. i just got news my appeal was approved and i am getting money.
-but i am no longer attending classes.
-so. i think i am just going to cash out.

craziness.

in other news. life aint so bad. i love the new season. i finally cleaned my studio. my phone is still off, but i am getting money soon, right? so that should work itself out shortly.
things are looking up.

let's talk about sex

Wed, 01 Nov 2006 21:06:34 GMT

today i got tested.
i have never been.
i recommend it.
didn't really like the needle part.
but the peeing in a cup made up for it.
it is surprising how comforting a warm cup of your own urine feels in cold hands.

wish me luck.
i may need to start an aids crew.

hello livejournal.

Mon, 09 Oct 2006 07:42:39 GMT

life.

my brother is in a rehab/counseling/school type deal in utah after an overdose. ( 24 dramamine.... after a weekend of snorting pills.)

he snuck out friday night and turned up monday passed out in the school bathroom.

seriously. this has been the longest week of my life.

intensive care. staying up all night by hospital beds. uncertainty. he is both incredibly lucky and incredibly stupid.

this has been a long time coming. i think this will indeed be good for him.

i am going to miss him. but, better a couple months, a year, however long... better that, than missing him forever.

p.s. fuck the white trash forty year old tweeker motherfucker supplying my brother with drugs. i hope this sends you back to prison. if not... you have a lot of trouble headed your way.

well...

Tue, 19 Sep 2006 18:02:15 GMT

i got my diploma in the mail yesterday.

don't really know what it means.

though i would feel proud... at least more proud. whatever.

i guess i should frame it.

never forget

Mon, 11 Sep 2006 18:39:23 GMT

what your first reactions were.

about the controlled demolition of towers one and two.

about what happened to building #7

about the lack of wreckage at the pentagon and in p.a.

about "why hadn't jets been scrambled?"

about "if two hours after the attacks, the government had enough information to blame it on osama ( a long standing cia operative), then how come the didn't have it two hours prior to the attacks... or in the two hours during the attacks... ?"

i hate to think that anyone could do this. there are bad people in this world. don't think your government and civilian elite are exculded from that list.

peace.

school daze

Sun, 10 Sep 2006 20:50:21 GMT

i decided to go back to school... last friday.

so i talked to a counselor. applied. sat in to add the classes i need. registered. applied for financial aid. sooo...

18 units. this semester +18 next + six units in summer= second B.A. (history)

then i may have to get my shit together. on to teaching credential.

p.s. i miss gina.

you're dead to me...

Thu, 13 Jul 2006 07:43:41 GMT

so.... i am stuck out at my moms this week to watch my 15 yr old little brother who is so irresponsible and troublesome that my mom can't trust him with a friend. (stealing his step dad's car for a joy ride, doing drugs, and sneaking out... on top of doing terrible in school, etc.) so anyway, the idiot has been caught by my mother putting clothes and pillows under his blankets in a feeble attempt to imitate the human form... twice. so what does the fucker do when i am out here watching him... i who gave him shit for trying that idiotic move... yep... he does it again!

i just came back from driving all around this fucking piece of shit town looking for the little shit. so i locked him out. fuck him... he is dead to me. he is so fucked. how dare him disrespect me like this. god i want to beat the shit out of him,

how am i supposed to go to work these next three days??? i can't leave the fucker alone (hell i can't even let him out of my sight for five minutes to watch a movie while he supposedly "goes to sleep")

tell me why i am having to deal with this right now?

mom you owe me big.

the strangest feeling.

Wed, 17 May 2006 18:28:19 GMT

i just finished my last final (guitar tomorrow doesn't count) of my college career. it was world war one history, and i pretty much owned it. as i left class, i think it finally hit me, i am done with college. i feel pretty amazing and magical right now. my feet have yet to touch the ground. holy shit this is really happening. i never thought it would.

UPDATE: i got an A!

by the way... anyone who reads this..

come to southside park on sunday at 3 p.m. for fun, food and festivities.

nonesense

Wed, 10 May 2006 19:42:18 GMT

life is weird right now... i will be graduating college in about a week and a half. i am torn about how i feel about it, or if i really feel anything at all about it. i think i am mostly freaking out because i think i should be feeling something more than i am. so whatever. these things pass. i probably will be substitute teaching for a while until i figure things out about which direction i want to take. which is cool. i could use a little limited responsibility time for myself. i think i have finally, gradually developed a good sense of self over the past couple years. things like that are immeasurably helpful i have found. life ain't too bad. i kind of like the way things are right now. except for this graduation nonsense.

Wed, 08 Mar 2006 20:35:25 GMT

new place.

new cat.

life is good.

Sun, 05 Feb 2006 17:04:03 GMT

the other evening, i was walking on campus, minding my own business, when i looked down... i 'bout shat myself and screamed like a bitch... fucking bullfrog! seriously my heart was racing big-time. then i realized it was just a crumpled up black bag, stunningly folded in the life-like shape of a actual bullfrog.

i am ridiculous.

in other news. life is pretty great.

p.s. thank you to jessica and gina for tolerating my invasion and then occupation of the home. i hope i was greeted as a liberator.